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Charlotte Crosby has revealed that she has suffered a second miscarriage in five months.
The former Geordie Shore reality TV star, who shares two children, Alba and Pixi, with her fiance Jake Ankers, took to Instagram to share the news with her followers.
In a statement on her account, the 36-year-old said: ‘Last month, we got the news we’d been hoping for. We found out we were pregnant.
‘It’s no secret that we’ve been trying to grow our family, so you can imagine the overwhelming happiness we felt when we saw the positive test.”
She then continued: ‘Especially after experiencing a silent miscarriage earlier this year, this pregnancy came with a lot of mixed emotions and nerves. It was a combination of happiness and fear at the same time.
‘We didn’t reach that stage in our last pregnancy, so that scan felt like a huge reassurance, and we both relaxed a little. We started really envisioning life as a family of 5… a future with 3 kids!’
However, Charlotte explained: ‘Unfortunately on our 8 week scan our world came crashing down, as we got the news we’d been petrified of all along….
‘”I’m so sorry, the baby’s heart has stopped beating” It felt like someone had ripped our hearts out of our chests. We lost another baby, another silent miscarriage.
‘We are incredibly lucky, and I can’t even explain how tight I’ve held these girls this last week!
‘Having them both will always be the greatest blessing we have ever recieved. You feel that even harder after experiencing a loss like this!
‘I love you both so much. My precious girls! Seeing them as big sisters was something me and Jake were made up about. Believe me they’d be the BEST most caring big sisters
‘Last night was The Wave of Light, a global event held to mark the end of Baby Loss Awareness Week.
‘And last night, everything just felt so heavy. The sadness felt heavy. The heartbreak felt heavy.
‘I realised that maybe I haven’t really allowed myself to process everything that’s happened. I’ve kept myself busy, stayed strong and tried to be as present as possible for the girls. It’s been Alba’s birthday, and I’ve wanted to make sure her days have been filled with nothing but happiness and love.’
The reality star added that: ‘As crazy as this sounds for the last 16 years I’ve shared my whole life with my followers, putting my feelings into words on here helps me make sense of it all. Having somewhere to share my emotions helps me from keeping them bottled up.
‘I’m not sure where we go from here and the future feels a little uncertain. We would absolutely love to grow out family however the fear of feeling this heartbreak again is terrifying.
‘I wanted to share this because this is my life, and this is our story.
‘Sometimes sharing the hardest parts helps me carry them a little more easily. And if you’re going through something similar, you’re not alone.’